...And here we go again......

Yes, that's right. In a drunken stupor, I posted something and caught her attention. She messaged me and asked me if I wanted to talk. being drunk, I said yes. I used a friends account to talk with her...I knew if she added me , her hubby would Soooo find out and wanted to save her the trouble. Anyway, so far so good. I actually look forward to talking with her. I am so pathetic. Dozens of friends, and I wanna talk to her. God help me! Remember....this was all MY doing.......

Yeah, it's been a while.

And nothing new. And still, I think about her at least once a day. It's over...LONG over and still I'm obsessing. What the fuck is wrong with me? I know if I start talking to her again, what's gonna happen. I'm gonna go down that same old road again and again. It's gonna get ugly and nasty. And still.....for the life of me I wanna talk to her. I'm such a fool. And an ass. I can't believe I even entertain the idea, but I do.